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suffocating
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 10:13 PM
today,
we had our exams in the hall!
it feels soo formal,
making my mind feel blank..
but at least i could write a whole page of conflict non-sense..
haha,
but my math didnt go so well,
its soo damn hard!
even the sec 5s dunno how to do..
*sigh*

after the examination,i felt soo hyper,
&i dont feel like myself,but i did care anyway.
i wanna be like Fadhila,
carefree,happy go lucky..
i played football wif
Sri,Shakir,Farris,Ahmad,JiaWei,Suhaimi,Rayyan&gang
i enjoyed it alot,
it felt like my primary school life,
when u dont need to think bout anything but having fun,
letting everything out,
but when i entered secondary school,
i changed,to be more 'decent,quiet,...'
but now,i dont feel like myself,
even though tts how i behave in pri school,
it just doesn't seem right.
it felt like i was trying to be someone else to hide my emotions,
it worked,but it fades the moment i stepped into my house.
now its just soo hard for me to breath,
like something blocking the air passage way,
no matter how much i tried to fill my lungs wif oxygen,
it still doesnt seem enough..
i wanna cry out loud!
but i know tt ppl will think im crazy if i cried for nothing,
there would be ppl who would talk bad things bout me when they didnt understand anything.
its just like everything tt is stacking up on my back,
even when its a little thing,
it still weighs..
things tt happened,things tt hurt me,may be forgotten,
but the feeling of getting hurt is still stays there.

i just feel soo tired of being someone else today,
i dun wanna change into a bitch/slut or someone else,
i wanna be the me,like last year,
2009 just seems to change me soo much.
i just wanna sulk through the whole day,
but my friends would surely be worried..
if i have the chance,i wanna cry everything out!

there's just so many things i forgot,
things tt hurt me,
but not knowing how to get the feelings off me,
being wif my friends helps,
but when their gone,it comes back for me..

i dunno what else to say,
as its so difficult to explain how it feels..