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friends?or not?
Thursday, June 11, 2009 10:48 PM
y did things turn out this way??
how i hope i could turn back time,
i really regretted treating my friends this way..
i dont know if some of them forgave me yet.
i hurt them twice&i dont wanna third..
the first time,i tried to stay away from them,
so tt i could reflect&not hurt them again,
than my friends came to talk to me,
i gave myself another chance,
but it happened again
&i dont think i would be forgiven tt easily..
i thought tt if i stayed away,i would'nt hurt u guys,
but it still did&im really sorry,
but im being forced to choose,
family/friends..i love both,
but i have to choose my family,
cause i really dont know if u all feel the same way as i do for u all,
&i did thought tt u guys would understand,
but all my thoughtless thoughts,are stupid,
all in all,i still hurt u guys.
*sigh*
im sorry for all the things i did or said tt hurt u all,
it okayy if u guys dont forgive me,
cause its really my fault,
for not treating u all nicely,not treasuring u all.

i really tried vry hard to stay away from u guys,
it feels,... really uncomfortable,
it makes my heart soo heavy.
but i promised myself not to hurt u guys anymore..
there's just soo many things happening now..
i dunno if i could handle all this.
everytime i fight with one of u,
something happens at home,it really feels soo weird,
my life seems so pathetic,
Akif once told me,
i could write a book about it,haha.
yeah,to let ppl know how pathetic mine is,
&theirs,are just normal ones.
some of my problems,maybe small,
but all this little things could stack up,
in my heart,
which start to make it hard to breath,
really made me restless..
made me really wanna scream or cry out loud..

y cant we just sit down&talk things out,
somethings may just be misunderstanding..
or to let each other understand what our dislike is.
it really soo confusing..
i dunno if u guys really take me as a friend..
i know some do,but some dont seem to,
maybe its something i did to make u hate me or so,
&i apologize for tt..
i hope things would go back to normal,
like the past,all just laughters..
i reallyreally miss&want those days back.

im sorry tt all i could say are apologies,
i dunno what else to do,
im afraid to talk to some of u,
is because im afraid tt u wouldnt listen&just walk off,
or say something tt would hurt,
it would really hurt me than,
even though i deserve it.
im just afraid to face it,or i might just cry,
i dont want sympathy,
i dont want u guys to forgive me just becos i cried,
it wouldnt solve the problem..

real sorry..